i hope you remember me like this, still beautiful without your unlawful kiss -I thing you already did

in latter-days/my hair pinned back in lilac berets/and here i lay in golden fields, admiring the tree branches as they sway/ gathering wildflowers into a vivaceous boquet/ watching over the cliff side, now upon my stomach, humbled on this gracious land, chin rested on my hands/ as my childhood pain dtifts away/ i ponder as that ship sails, my precious ship, my lfe before, how long it took me to let it go, to leave the shore, knowing all to well i had to toss myself adrift, it

I wish to never lose my muchness/ the innocence and imagination that is placed in the hearts of young children/ I long to only become much more whimsical rather than far less with time/ a heart of wonder is far more precious than gold/ may your heart and soul never age -I fear to ever hear “you used to be”

time flies in hopeless sighs life flies in silent cries love goes just like it rose wisdom grows just like a Rose -don't stay in the pain, get off that train, allow vivacious elation to reign

pay the unknown a visit time isn’t counted in minutes your flowers long to be replenished love never ended every heart is blemished only you can mend it you are never finished it’s okay to be skittish when others see you as just a clinic to them this is survival of the fittest but you don’t fit that image stay out of frame, step outside of refrain -stay living without any limits

i love you like saturdays calling you my better days my homey days my happy days thanking you for brighter days slipping in and out of you like patterned ways like destined heartbreaks some days it’s just “okays” off balance on your rough terrain always crashing into each other like constant waves i always tried so hard to find us any waterways begging for you to stay- what a waste but there were none, you just watched me stumble and forget my lines for you like a character i

i hope you know how innocent you are in all of this i hope you say goodbye to all the guilt and shame with a simple kiss because my dear, you never deserved any of this you never caused any of this, you never wanted a life like this and yes, i know how much you do love to reminisce but its time to call it quits on allowing them to mark their territory on you like piss you mustn't continue this - you must stop taking the blame for this trust me, i know how hard this hits but p

my therapist asked me today in session: "what is one of the greatest hurts you felt from your father?" and as i wince and tense from hearing those words i stare at the bookshelf behind him on the wall trying to even attempt just picking a single one out from my whole life. i stared blankly at the books thinking about how some people don't appreciate their beauty or take care of them when they are in their possession. they often come back damaged and disregarded, yet no matter

Why do we have hope? it’s a waste when you don’t even feel like living, the days just come and go like waves, empty but holding all that weight, all different yet still the same. how am I supposed to be excited when everything’s dull. I know you’re supposed to find courage but what if I don’t want it anymore, what if I dont need it anymore. what if I can do it but I just can’t find a reason to anymore. yeah, sure some will miss something of me, but it will all eventually fade

make me be nothing but what you want... - a never wanted heart of a 14-year-old girl